HOW ?

My birthday is over for 5 days ler~~
But still have things want to make decision~~
I still very fan about that 2 things , make me scare of that...

Until now i still no so brave to facing it and tell that to them
What can I do ? Them call me must "tabah" !
Just do what I want , I think that is alright must do it !
I am big girl right now , a lot of things I have to make decision,not they make for me .
GOD !! are you hear me... How am I going to do ??

I must settle it!! Must settle it !
Thanks they are support me !